Deeper Than My Feet Could Wander

As I do the typical “reflect on this year post” I’m overcome with thankfulness with all that God did. This year had some highs,  but as with every year, it also had some lows. As I reflect, I'm reminded how much both the highs and the lows taught me about Christ, His plans for me, and letting go of what I thought my future would look like and allowing God to use me where He leads.  The lows taught me forgiveness doesn’t happen overnight . It is a long, grueling process. Many things can happen that remind me of situations that make me hurt all over again.  I also learned that  just moving on doesn’t mean I’ve   dealt with it. Whatever your low was this year- broken relationships, “unfair circumstances”, heartbreak, death, the list can go on; if you haven’t dealt with it and have just brushed it under the rug, deal with it. Confrontation, reflection and hard conversations aren’t fun, but they need to happen. It’s necessary for growth.   Be hon...

“ Stop staring at the rear view, you ain't checking your hair, that wheel has spun and them lights are out, there ain't nothin' for you back there. Stop holding on so dang tight, ' bout time you let go..." N othing like some throwback Thomas Rhett to really hit me in the feels and make me think. Some friends/coworkers and I went through a really tough time August 28, 2018. My birthday, a day that should have been so fun and exciting, our lives and plans were shattered to pieces.   That day, dreams and visions for the future were broken into a million pieces that will never be put back together.    E ach person dealt with this change differently; a change that seemed unfair, unjust, and just downright wrong. We each picked up a piece that was broken that day and did our best to move on. We had to.   It’s been over a year, and I’ll be honest- I’m still in the healing process, I haven't completely let go.   I realized that I’m still deali...

It has been a really long time since I have blogged. I struggle to reflect. It forces me to think and many times relive experiences that I don't want to relive. It puts me in a headspace I work daily to avoid. With all that said, I started thinking this morning about all that has happened in the last 3 years of living in Honduras. As T-Swift and Ed Sheeran sing, everything has changed. I went as a 20 year old single girl who had never taught, didn't know the Spanish language, and was extremely naive and ignorant about many things. I am now a 24 year old, a teacher, and am engaged to a man who only speaks the Spanish language. It's crazy how God works.  Teaching K4 in 2016. I had no experience teaching, but God used these 6 months to spur on my passion for teaching ESL, and showed me the power  of a bilingual education. God used Honduras to change me. Anyone who knew me in high school and knows me now knows I'm a different person. I know that for 2 reasons. One, p...